You Me and We.

Saturday, May 30, 2009

well, here i am,
deciding to post once again!
cousin came to my house just now
and he taught me chinese.
he is so nice to me.
really,
he came down from sembawang all the way mans!
and he even squeezed me in his schedule
just before his basketball training.
vincent cousin,
i wish you and your teammates the best on thursday's match! :D

you told me this
that at least i have a goal
you didnt.
now you got your life messed up.
now i tell you this.
my answer to you is
at least you got your results.
goals can be picked up along the way.
my only fear is,
if i cant be a vet.
my career is ruin.
so what if i got a goal by now?
will it even come true?
your results is a reality.
my goal is a dream.
you see the big difference now?

i want to be a caretaker for spca
so badly,
i want to be 21 now to buy a house myself! x:
even my parents asked me to buy my own house if i want my pets.
hahhaha!

but amanda, snap back to reality -.-
you are only 16.
you have not even sat for your olevels
craps.
just imagine the fun joy peace and laughter you will have
with all the animals!
bouncing around with the rabbits,
watching tv with the cats
play fetch with dogs
and talk to the animals!
woof* meow* _____*( for rabbits cos i dont knw what sound they make)
and squeak* ( for guinea pigs!)
but why oh why,
must the wait be so torturous):
because its life.

the only wish in my life now
is to get 10 points for the os.
i am working hard
but will God pull me through?

bored bored bored.
now waiting for cousin to come over
and teach me chinese
amaths and combined humanities!

Labels: to be a caretaker

Friday, May 29, 2009

as the days draw nearer,
my nightmares starts to become a reality.

well, had been hyper and crapping this entire week.
really tired at times.
now even staying up late just to revise Chinese!

just now went to the spca website.
gosh, people are so cruel!
why do they like to abuse animals?
its so sickening.
how i wish i cn skin these people alive.
if a torturer is needed to wake this people up.
look me up.
i dont mind.
is like, animals are living things too!
on what rights do they have to abuse them.
if you dont get what i mean, go spca and see their news.
its really unbearable.
there is one incident that a person,
killed and dismembered the kitten!
there were only 2 legs and bones and head left.
the flesh everything gone!
its just a kitten!

anyway,
got to go study chinese already.
to all students sitting for the monday paper
God Bless You!

Thursday, May 21, 2009

have a really weird mood swing recently.
i would be hyper in the morning
and slowly,
it will fade and i would fall and sink into
a really tired and depressed mood.
even though i have pretty good entertainers in class,
they fail to entertain me.
i seriously wonder
am i falling back into you?
but i made a pact with myself
to leave you for good.
yet,
why do you keep appearing into the moments
when i have already forgotten you?
i really feel helpless.
but all i know,
i really want to see you once again.

anyway,
today have a really weird teacher that stepped into our class.
wow, he has a killer look
i find him seriously strange, weird.
freaky.
he scolded Preston for laughing?
said Hamira owed him money cos she just stood with her hands at her hips?
dont even let us sleep. -.-
when ms ng told us he used to be a police warden,
i knew it.
he got transferred to a wrong job!
i mean really, if you see him.
you might think he is really freaky x:

Monday, May 18, 2009

now i understand why i felt so empty.
thanks to you, once again.
i was sure i forgotten you.
yet, my heart proved me wrong.
days after days,
this emptiness became a crack, a gap, a hole.
now, its as big as Bigfoot footprint.
when i saw you in the bus today,
i broke down on the way home.
i hate myself.
i really do,
i have to control my emotions daily
because i wanted to prove myself wrong.
i pushed back my tears daily.
only to feel it flooding my eyes in pain.
why do things have to end this way?
why do boys always leave girls hanging
and to fend for themselves?
this isnt a game of survival ass.
this is love, when you promise,
you have to keep.

if i have the capability,
i would go up to you now,
and slap you.
and finally say.
i hate you for leaving me hanging.
so now i will say,
goodbye, you freak.
and this will be the very last time.

today had back all papers except fnn.
wow, i passed a maths paper 1!
i win JOEY TAN!
wow, i couldnt believe it.
i was seriously shaking -.-
was really hyper today.
had no idea why.
well, as usual.
i felt really empty inside during lessons.
i failed combined humans. ( oh my gosh, seriously )
e maths( erm, i really thought i would get at least a 50? )
a maths( bah. its part of me alr. but i improved alright?!)
fnn, please dont fail.
because i already failed 3.
and thats enough -.-

Saturday, May 16, 2009

went to spca yesterday!
omgosh,
the pets there are so cute!
i fell in love with one kitten the moment i saw it.
its named licorice, a purely black 5 months kitten.
at first, all i heard was its purrs.
i couldnt find where it came from so i ignored it.
then, suddenly
a paw tapped my leg.
it kept stretching from its cage
as though trying to say : ' LOOK HERE! '
so i did.
and there it was.
looking at me, trying to entertain me
and get my attention.

when i looked away from it,
its paws kept stretching from the cage.
not willing to let me off.
when i went back,
all i could think was licorice.
i feel so helpless.
i was unable to bring this kitten back.
licorice,
if there is a will, there will be a way.
please, wait for me.
i will be back for you! ):

and also,
my dad allowed me to sign up
for the volunteering service for spca!
at first when i talked about work
he said
i dont need money yet
if i want can ask from him
he said something that made me love him even more
he said
if you want can also stay at home
i dont see a need for you to work yet!
i am so glad he is my dad.
hahah(:

licorice,
please wait for me.
i will be praying and doing my best to get a 13 point for the os.
though this wait till be long and torturous
but you must wait for me.
never leave that cage.
please baby, wait for me!
if i cnt get you,
i will search high and low for you.
cos, i knw you are the one.

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

today amaths exam was cool!
i saw the real side of my friends when they give up the paper!
so hilarious, me, sinyee, prico, cynthia and waikin was laughing
i was playing tic tac toe with myself o.o
the only good students left
- jiayi
- christine
- joey
- tani
-sufian
- natalie
- shikin
wow! they are truly amazing and i mean it
they can actually last throughout the entire 2h 30min paper
pure hero and heroines. well done.
and when everyone was done,
it was as though we just completed the big O.
hahaha! if only it was true x:

anyway,
tomorrow is going to be a long day):
having chinese 2 paper, e maths 2 paper and fnn paper
so not a good combo x:
and now the worse is, nothing is being installed in my head
and the even worse thing,
im so hungry
i can eat a donkey right now. but, its only 5.55 pm -.-
the worst thing ever,
i think i can only last till 8:30pm before brain dead!

Sunday, May 10, 2009

wow, todays sunday!
crap, tomorrow is going to be a long day.
having tuition from 12.30 all the way till 4.
and going to sit there see that joey tan smiling and drooling
at her stupid prince charming -.-
who i doubt even notice her?
she been hitting me when he did not turn up on Friday
milk mans! is it my fault?
what can i do? this is what best friends are for.
they do stupid things to you when their love isnt there.
hahaha x:

now, all i can do is to wait for time to pass.
so boooorriiiinnngggggg !):

P.S HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY!

Thursday, May 7, 2009

yea! i am officially 16 from today onwards!
ok, thanks to those who wished me a happy birthday.
cant wait to celebrate with you guys mans.
ha ha,
anyways,
today a maths paper was do-able!
cool. i actually find it manageable.

ok, end here.
see you! :D

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

tomorrow the BIG day! :D

went to have lunch with Kelly, joey, Cynthia and waikin.
waikin brought his friend welson.
i can see he was badly traumatized by us :D
maybe he never expect us to be hyper.
hahaha!
still, had joyous fun with them once again.
ok, off to study!

bye! :D

Monday, May 4, 2009

i thought things were going to change
for better as i thought i saw light.
how was i to know,
i became a fool
waiting day and night for your stupid reply.
so oh well, now i tell
you are so officially over(:

1 paper down,
a long way to go(:
i pray real hard that God will pull me through tmr's paper
cos now, my brain is fully loaded.
worse scenario, my chem isnt in it.
its only ss o.o

3 more days to a very important day!

thanks to aunt for buying me that shades.
love it. haha(:
and for all my other gifts too!

Saturday, May 2, 2009

alright now what.
i got my reputation smeared real bad.
1) for being too noisy in front of the public due to Joey's whining -.-
2) i said bye to guy in public whom has no relation to me, ALSO because of that joey, again.
and it all happened on Friday, yesterday
how bad can my life be?
now he might
1) avoid me
2) think i am weird
although i dont care,
but still, i am in the torturing fate.
because of him -.-
someone, save me.
from who?
joey tan ze man, again.
and really, everytime when i post about this woman.
its hardly positive. why?
cos its always about glen. -.-

anyway, exams starting.
freaking out? nah. im still chilling.
lols, why? not sure.
shall end here!
i pray i will last till the end of the year.
1) from joey tan ze man
2) exams!
(:(:(:

5 more days to a very important day!