completely freaked out by fnn today
had to stay back all the way until 7 la -.-
mdm shikin even made things worse by telling us some
experience she had in the fnn room last year at 7
and about the crackers story.
is like, cynthia, joey, jiayi, prico and i were seriously freaked out.
even till now, i had to ask _______ to accompany me in msn.
thanks _______ alot alot alot!
had a really fun time with cynthia joey jiayi and prico at macs.
took bus home, bathe.
tmr got tuition!
completely seriously freaked out.
please, i want my beauty sleep.
i dont want nightmares tonight):
Friday, July 31, 2009
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
helpless ;
i guess, it is flooding back again.
i let go of one, i got caught in another.
someone, please teach me, what i should do.
some people say the only thing that really hurts you
is that you see the one you like loving another.
i beg to differ though.
what hurts the most to me,
is that the person i really hope to be, has never placed me in him before.
i let go of one, i got caught in another.
someone, please teach me, what i should do.
some people say the only thing that really hurts you
is that you see the one you like loving another.
i beg to differ though.
what hurts the most to me,
is that the person i really hope to be, has never placed me in him before.
Monday, July 27, 2009
nothing much happened today.
Chinese lesson was hilarious(:
though teacher kept nagging at us.
chem was stupid
i was freaking out as there were 2 reasons.
1) there was a spider on the bunsen burner -.-
2) the fire and chemicals were just freaking me out.
conclusion : i hate practical!):
e maths was stupid.
teacher was showing off some childish attitude -.-.
not really her fault though.
but why do they keep flooding us with these papers to do?
its freaking tiring and boring alright. i assure you.
was shock when kn suddenly told me he was coming to tam.
sorry, it was really last min.
forgive me yea?
next time, if you want a proper presentation,
i will make sure i dress nicely for you. haha, lols.
i promise you, after my exams, and yours,
you choose where to hang out! (:
off to wonder whether or not to do fnn!(:
haha, bye!
Chinese lesson was hilarious(:
though teacher kept nagging at us.
chem was stupid
i was freaking out as there were 2 reasons.
1) there was a spider on the bunsen burner -.-
2) the fire and chemicals were just freaking me out.
conclusion : i hate practical!):
e maths was stupid.
teacher was showing off some childish attitude -.-.
not really her fault though.
but why do they keep flooding us with these papers to do?
its freaking tiring and boring alright. i assure you.
was shock when kn suddenly told me he was coming to tam.
sorry, it was really last min.
forgive me yea?
next time, if you want a proper presentation,
i will make sure i dress nicely for you. haha, lols.
i promise you, after my exams, and yours,
you choose where to hang out! (:
off to wonder whether or not to do fnn!(:
haha, bye!
Thursday, July 23, 2009
wow, i am practically updating everyday of my life.
lols, guess i got to bored, and too many things to say, thats why.(:
cut short,
mdm shikin didnt come today
slacked off with joey and cynthia as usual
was pissed by english teacher -.-
i just asked for my pencil and she said
:' amanda, what conversation are you having there with fadhilah?'
lols, and gave me a bird face -.-.
Irritating and pissed off.
History, gosh, i am becoming to love it even more!
mrs m! i am your no.1 fan! hahaha :D
she rocks, really.(:
Amaths -.-,
just cos i didnt take temperature with the class,
teacher made me walk back all the way. lols.
took me a full 10 mins.
it was short alr ok!
chem, i started throwing stuffs at joey.
Entertaining!
Carina and wilson started to say i was violent):
all i did was to scream at her,
threatening that i would make her swallow her liquid
and purple pen like plain water! haha.
went to caltex after sp to slack.
with the days drawing near,
the thought of losing this class made me sick.
i will really, seriously miss 4G once i leave springfield.
although this school is budget, it produced priceless memories that would be loved.
boredboredbored.
with this guy named TKN,
must tell me when you are coming down to tampines yo?
me want see your 'handsome' face!
lols, just kdding. haha
its my friends that are eager to see you. haha!(:
lols, guess i got to bored, and too many things to say, thats why.(:
cut short,
mdm shikin didnt come today
slacked off with joey and cynthia as usual
was pissed by english teacher -.-
i just asked for my pencil and she said
:' amanda, what conversation are you having there with fadhilah?'
lols, and gave me a bird face -.-.
Irritating and pissed off.
History, gosh, i am becoming to love it even more!
mrs m! i am your no.1 fan! hahaha :D
she rocks, really.(:
Amaths -.-,
just cos i didnt take temperature with the class,
teacher made me walk back all the way. lols.
took me a full 10 mins.
it was short alr ok!
chem, i started throwing stuffs at joey.
Entertaining!
Carina and wilson started to say i was violent):
all i did was to scream at her,
threatening that i would make her swallow her liquid
and purple pen like plain water! haha.
went to caltex after sp to slack.
with the days drawing near,
the thought of losing this class made me sick.
i will really, seriously miss 4G once i leave springfield.
although this school is budget, it produced priceless memories that would be loved.
boredboredbored.
with this guy named TKN,
must tell me when you are coming down to tampines yo?
me want see your 'handsome' face!
lols, just kdding. haha
its my friends that are eager to see you. haha!(:
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
what a brilliant day to start off school.
was informed mdm shikin didnt come.
awesome! :D
slacked off in needle work room for an hour.
play play play. lols. -.-.
kind of addicted to FFS.
haha. (:
listening chinese comprehension was a torture.
i had no Bs for my answer! gosh, freaked out totally): .
thankfully, many of my friends got only 1 or 2 Bs.
wouldnt make much difference then. haha(:
alright, off to study.(:
p.s I am not a bimbo! I am smarter than ang weijie!
i can stay away from food from 8 to 5, without feeling hungry
only to come home and become a glutton!
was informed mdm shikin didnt come.
awesome! :D
slacked off in needle work room for an hour.
play play play. lols. -.-.
kind of addicted to FFS.
haha. (:
listening chinese comprehension was a torture.
i had no Bs for my answer! gosh, freaked out totally): .
thankfully, many of my friends got only 1 or 2 Bs.
wouldnt make much difference then. haha(:
alright, off to study.(:
p.s I am not a bimbo! I am smarter than ang weijie!
Even though the school is filled with hundreds of people, the sight of not seeing you in school makes me wonder, so what if there is everyone around me? Without you, its nothing.also, i think my appetite is getting weird):
i can stay away from food from 8 to 5, without feeling hungry
only to come home and become a glutton!
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
was quite hyper as usual.
ms lee made everyone wrote testimonials to each class mate.
sad! everyone said my voice was very high, and that i am noisy -.-. LOL.
however in overall,
what everyone said was very touching!
will definitely miss this class after i leave school):
everything went as per normal.
However, our trip to ikea for lunch was ruined -.-
some f-ing security guard scolded me, cynthia, kelly, joey and sin yee.
just because we walked to the customer service area
lols, see us students than say us.
hello, there were adults eating in that area too alright?
he said: 'hello girls, your school never teach you where to eat, where not to eat is it. What is your school, i want to report you all. Springfield right? okok. i will report.'
then i said: 'but i everytime eat here no one stopped me what. is you all never put boundaries'
he said: 'common sense what, you eat in canteen what'
you stupid gay.
I EAT IN CLASSROOM FOR YOUR BLOODY INFORMATION. -.-
and my school teach me, IS IKEA NEVER SAY ANYTHING!
gaygaygay! report me for all i care!
who cares about you stupid gay report.
call manager, call la!
i write to the newspaper see who on the winning stand.
stupid gays -.-.
so people, if you see this security guard saying this to you,
notice this, HE ONLY SAY IT TO STUDENTS IN UNIFORM.
He is so f-ing gay, he is a national singapore disgrace -.-.
ms lee made everyone wrote testimonials to each class mate.
sad! everyone said my voice was very high, and that i am noisy -.-. LOL.
however in overall,
what everyone said was very touching!
will definitely miss this class after i leave school):
everything went as per normal.
However, our trip to ikea for lunch was ruined -.-
some f-ing security guard scolded me, cynthia, kelly, joey and sin yee.
just because we walked to the customer service area
lols, see us students than say us.
hello, there were adults eating in that area too alright?
he said: 'hello girls, your school never teach you where to eat, where not to eat is it. What is your school, i want to report you all. Springfield right? okok. i will report.'
then i said: 'but i everytime eat here no one stopped me what. is you all never put boundaries'
he said: 'common sense what, you eat in canteen what'
you stupid gay.
I EAT IN CLASSROOM FOR YOUR BLOODY INFORMATION. -.-
and my school teach me, IS IKEA NEVER SAY ANYTHING!
gaygaygay! report me for all i care!
who cares about you stupid gay report.
call manager, call la!
i write to the newspaper see who on the winning stand.
stupid gays -.-.
so people, if you see this security guard saying this to you,
notice this, HE ONLY SAY IT TO STUDENTS IN UNIFORM.
He is so f-ing gay, he is a national singapore disgrace -.-.
Monday, July 20, 2009
today was a really great and fun day for me.
i just could not shut up -.-
to this stupid goat,
by changing your blog link and privatizing your blog
would not make me leave your blog.
i am going to do what you deserved.
you f-er.
and lol to you.
dont think by talking crap to thia would sound entertaining to you.
you freak us out.
you annoy us. and i mean it -.-
get a life and stop being a freak, before i blow my top.
you twerp.
(stop acting pathetic, cos it really irritates, annoy and freak me out)
why is it, whenever i see you, my eyes drift away from you? Yet, i long to see you smile at me. Its just so irony. I guess, this is what they call it, a mask. And the mask i am wearing is deceptions. I try to make believe to all those around me and myself that i have no more feelings for you. However i tell you the truth, i still miss you, and its true.
someone, teach me, how do you forget a guy?
i just could not shut up -.-
to this stupid goat,
by changing your blog link and privatizing your blog
would not make me leave your blog.
i am going to do what you deserved.
you f-er.
and lol to you.
dont think by talking crap to thia would sound entertaining to you.
you freak us out.
you annoy us. and i mean it -.-
get a life and stop being a freak, before i blow my top.
you twerp.
(stop acting pathetic, cos it really irritates, annoy and freak me out)
why is it, whenever i see you, my eyes drift away from you? Yet, i long to see you smile at me. Its just so irony. I guess, this is what they call it, a mask. And the mask i am wearing is deceptions. I try to make believe to all those around me and myself that i have no more feelings for you. However i tell you the truth, i still miss you, and its true.
someone, teach me, how do you forget a guy?
Saturday, July 18, 2009
yawns. woke up at 940 today.
had tuition from 11 to 1230.
he seems to be leaving earlier and earlier each week):
stuck with tons of homework now.
sigh, and i am freaking hungry right now.
going to study study study all the way.
super bored right now!
i am confused. Why is it that girls cry when they hurt and act like they are dying while guys dont do anything but shrug when they hurt and move on like a lightning? Or is it, they dont feel hurt at all? Or they just act tough and hid in their cupboards and pour out a river? Or am i just a girl which never understands a guy? hmm... Can some guy tell me, when will you guys get hurt, and will show it? Cos i pray, that me and my friends would meet a guy that would promise to love us, and would really keep it.
had tuition from 11 to 1230.
he seems to be leaving earlier and earlier each week):
stuck with tons of homework now.
sigh, and i am freaking hungry right now.
going to study study study all the way.
super bored right now!
i am confused. Why is it that girls cry when they hurt and act like they are dying while guys dont do anything but shrug when they hurt and move on like a lightning? Or is it, they dont feel hurt at all? Or they just act tough and hid in their cupboards and pour out a river? Or am i just a girl which never understands a guy? hmm... Can some guy tell me, when will you guys get hurt, and will show it? Cos i pray, that me and my friends would meet a guy that would promise to love us, and would really keep it.
Friday, July 17, 2009
lols, joey tan.
you called me at 7 plus just to make fun of me huh?
say you are rj friend.
please, once i hear your laughter, i can guarantee myself its you(:
took a whole lot of pictures at church just now.
lols, obviously as usual, me and clara became outcast.
steffy obviously gave me the 'just get going face'
say hello also like i owe her money. lols.
well, who cares?
i am here as and when i like it.
its none of your business.
i am here to worship the Lord,
not there to entertain you.
neither was i there to lick your boots -.-.
alright. so sad, i have tons of homework.
none of them completed.
sad. sigh.
bye!(:
will update pictures on facebook(forced by clara -.-)
and on my blog soon!
loves and bye(:
you called me at 7 plus just to make fun of me huh?
say you are rj friend.
please, once i hear your laughter, i can guarantee myself its you(:
took a whole lot of pictures at church just now.
lols, obviously as usual, me and clara became outcast.
steffy obviously gave me the 'just get going face'
say hello also like i owe her money. lols.
well, who cares?
i am here as and when i like it.
its none of your business.
i am here to worship the Lord,
not there to entertain you.
neither was i there to lick your boots -.-.
alright. so sad, i have tons of homework.
none of them completed.
sad. sigh.
bye!(:
will update pictures on facebook(forced by clara -.-)
and on my blog soon!
loves and bye(:
had a great day today, once again.
i am really glad, i have let it go.
but to cynthia
i guess, its always the same. When we got hurt, we find those smiling in front of us really fortunate. Yet, i tell you, some of us smile is because we dont wish to implicate those around us. I tell you, a smile could mean a thousand tears behind.
i am really glad, i have let it go.
but to cynthia
There are so many guys out there. I believe, some good one out there is waiting for you. Its just that you have not noticed them. I am sure you would not face problems finding it too. If the one you love choose to lie to you, to leave you, to hurt you, its their choice. There is nothing wrong with it, i say. Its part of relationship. Yet, we must choose to let go. I tell you, the truth sometimes is, we hang on not because we love them. We hang on is because of the memories. I tell you, i hung on is because i regretted. Yet now, he and i could be friends, i am satisfied and contempted. In life, every thing is like that, its just how we handle them. Yes, though i am not some love guru or something. At least, i am your friend and will be here for you anytime, anywhere.(:
to kellyi know its hard to understand your situation. Yet, as a friend, i can tell how much struggles you are battling against. Like i said again, i had never been in a relationship before. But i know, falling in love is a thousand daggers stabbing at the same time, same wound, same heart. Even though you keep in silent from us, i could tell, you are puzzled at times. Cynthia, Joey and I will always be here. If there is any matters you need to vent it out, you can share with us. And we will help you.(:
finally, to clara
and gosh, i got addicted to this 擦肩而過 song!Hey, i know how you are feeling right now. If such a guy actually exist, why bother categorize him as a friend when he has treated you like dirt. I know memories flow back, it hurts, i felt that why before. However, i guess, God put it this way, lets just follow it. At least you still have great guy friends around you that cares for you. You still have your girl friends and me too. Cheer up alright? If you are still struggling, i guess, clear every single evidence of his existence, well, even though he is your classmate, it is easy.(:alright. now still wondering how much time i have left to complete my homework!
i guess, its always the same. When we got hurt, we find those smiling in front of us really fortunate. Yet, i tell you, some of us smile is because we dont wish to implicate those around us. I tell you, a smile could mean a thousand tears behind.
Thursday, July 16, 2009
i had many things to share.
but shall cut it short, since i am dead tired.
eyes are shutting soon! ):
1) had practical. javin looked like a tiko, staring at cynthia while waiting for his baked custard!
joey and i concluded - javin is the tiko, cynthia is the victim/ flirt. hahaha(:
2) joey went so crazy, she even started singing -.-
3) had a complete shock due to some matters. was kind of happy too, though.
4) went to eat at T1 with cynthia, joey and kelly! (: had the best of time. i really, sincerly, love them a lot! hahaha.
5) Got forced to take 69 bus with joey, and had to wait for cynthia to buy chocolates.
6) i took revenge on joey by making her look as though we were les in public! HAHAHA! :D
7) finally got home, at 8.50 pm -.-
ok. what a long and tiring day.
bye!(:
but shall cut it short, since i am dead tired.
eyes are shutting soon! ):
1) had practical. javin looked like a tiko, staring at cynthia while waiting for his baked custard!
joey and i concluded - javin is the tiko, cynthia is the victim/ flirt. hahaha(:
2) joey went so crazy, she even started singing -.-
3) had a complete shock due to some matters. was kind of happy too, though.
4) went to eat at T1 with cynthia, joey and kelly! (: had the best of time. i really, sincerly, love them a lot! hahaha.
5) Got forced to take 69 bus with joey, and had to wait for cynthia to buy chocolates.
6) i took revenge on joey by making her look as though we were les in public! HAHAHA! :D
7) finally got home, at 8.50 pm -.-
ok. what a long and tiring day.
bye!(:
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
I am glad everything is over.
I am glad i asked.
I am thankful she told you.
I am thankful you asked.
Though you seem to have forgotten everything.
At least, we can start from the basics.
Even though i poured out a river today,
I am glad, finally, everything is over.
At least now, we can be friends.
I am glad i asked.
I am thankful she told you.
I am thankful you asked.
Though you seem to have forgotten everything.
At least, we can start from the basics.
Even though i poured out a river today,
I am glad, finally, everything is over.
At least now, we can be friends.
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Came back from school straight today.
Was really tired.
Yes, so what if i broke down emotionally
Would the four of you even be sorry
Was really not in the mood until i found out.
Why should i even cry for jerks like the four of you?
Even if i cry, would you even know?
All of you do not even seem to understand where my limits are.
You ruin it, you blew it.
And i am really mad at the four of you.
But, i would not let my life ruin this way.
Alright, going back to my homework.
Bye! (:
yes, i have learnt to let go. And indeed, sometimes, hanging on is somehow weird. You like a person, but it does not mean they will like you back. Generations have changed. What happened to the so called ' you reap what you sow' ? I put in my love and effort in friendship and love life. I tried to be there, to tolerate everything and tried to be the listening one. Yet, i got nothing back but hurts and regrets in the end.
oh yes. Did i mention my sis just caught a slight cough, flu and fever an hour ago? :D
Was really tired.
Yes, so what if i broke down emotionally
Would the four of you even be sorry
Was really not in the mood until i found out.
Why should i even cry for jerks like the four of you?
Even if i cry, would you even know?
All of you do not even seem to understand where my limits are.
You ruin it, you blew it.
And i am really mad at the four of you.
But, i would not let my life ruin this way.
Alright, going back to my homework.
Bye! (:
yes, i have learnt to let go. And indeed, sometimes, hanging on is somehow weird. You like a person, but it does not mean they will like you back. Generations have changed. What happened to the so called ' you reap what you sow' ? I put in my love and effort in friendship and love life. I tried to be there, to tolerate everything and tried to be the listening one. Yet, i got nothing back but hurts and regrets in the end.
oh yes. Did i mention my sis just caught a slight cough, flu and fever an hour ago? :D
Monday, July 13, 2009
i feel like making one more short post.before i leave this blog today.
what happened to all those, you both will be there for this cell? Huey, i want you to know. Even though i had not really been nice to you all these years. I want you to know, i still respect you. Yes, i hated it when you and Steffy treated me and clara like dirt. You two had always seen as chatterbox. You never approved us together. We could see for ourselves the cell had never really been open to us. We were always the outcast . Yet, we bear it all. Now, the limit has broken, hearts have spoken. We really want you both to know and to see, that you both were really horrible to us. Even my friends said, why am i staying? Well, the truth is. I am staying because of minyi, clarissa and clara. If not for them, i would have long vanished into thin air. Now, because of this cell group, i feel that i am disrespecting God for not going to church. Yet, whats the point if i go and worship him, and yet harbour hatred in my heart and the 4 of you criticism at the same time? I have decided to let God decided. If anyone invites me to their church, it would be then, i will follow. And really disappear without a word.
Call me rude readers, but to tell you.
They were really horrible.
Wont go into details.
if not for the beautiful memories, i would have found it meaningless to carry on here.
Call me rude readers, but to tell you.
They were really horrible.
Wont go into details.
if not for the beautiful memories, i would have found it meaningless to carry on here.
went to school per normal today.
only thing different was, i had my batteries recharged fully yesterday!
i saw 7 hunks in the huge courts, can you believe it?
gosh. (:
had amaths test.
wow, i got 6/14 !
finally got higher than joey and cynthia.
jiajing, you ought to be proud of me!
HAHAHA (:
skip all the way to chemistry.
crap -.-
i seriously hate practical.
now, not only do i dislike calculations,
i dread practical -.-.
oh yes, i forgot.
fadhilah and i came up with a really nice slogan.
'Heck Care the Earth, Save Yourself First'
lols! we were seriously crapping crazily today.
and i came up with another slogan
'A Ricola a day, makes you sing like the advertisement everyday!'
cool right? but please, its copyrighted.
also, my sister just noted to me, my eating style is really scary.
reason:
just now, i was eating dinner,
my plastic spoon was seriously stacked with rice.
within 5 mins, i gobbled everything up.
Yet, it is nothing alright?
i was hungry!
i assure you, i am still hungry now):):):
alright, wish me luck!
i still have 3 more physics paper to go.
hahaha(:
my cell group is tearing apart.
it hurts. but i can bear this people no more.
anyone who needs people in their cell? please bring me and my friends along. ):
i want to leave this pain behind.
only thing different was, i had my batteries recharged fully yesterday!
i saw 7 hunks in the huge courts, can you believe it?
gosh. (:
had amaths test.
wow, i got 6/14 !
finally got higher than joey and cynthia.
jiajing, you ought to be proud of me!
HAHAHA (:
skip all the way to chemistry.
crap -.-
i seriously hate practical.
now, not only do i dislike calculations,
i dread practical -.-.
oh yes, i forgot.
fadhilah and i came up with a really nice slogan.
'Heck Care the Earth, Save Yourself First'
lols! we were seriously crapping crazily today.
and i came up with another slogan
'A Ricola a day, makes you sing like the advertisement everyday!'
cool right? but please, its copyrighted.
also, my sister just noted to me, my eating style is really scary.
reason:
just now, i was eating dinner,
my plastic spoon was seriously stacked with rice.
within 5 mins, i gobbled everything up.
Yet, it is nothing alright?
i was hungry!
i assure you, i am still hungry now):):):
alright, wish me luck!
i still have 3 more physics paper to go.
hahaha(:
when i saw you today, the wound still hurt. Yet, the pain is no longer there. It seems as though, i am getting use to this. I am letting go, yet, the regrets flood back. If only i could turn back the time, and tell you, hey, i love you too. Would things then, be different? I really want you to know, i am still hanging on is because i want to tell you how sorry i am. However, would God ever bless me this chance? I lie to myself again and again. It is as though it is a routine. I feel bad when i try to find substitutes. I know its bad. But this is the only way. Yet, this method really failed me. Its already 9 months ever since the incident. And i have yet to let it pass me.also, i just realised.
my cell group is tearing apart.
it hurts. but i can bear this people no more.
anyone who needs people in their cell? please bring me and my friends along. ):
i want to leave this pain behind.
Sunday, July 12, 2009
if i have to go on like this, i will collapse.
So, would you be the one to catch me if i fall?
gosh. its so tiring!
woke at 9 plus and waited for jiajing to come.
had tuition till 1.
did physics paper after he went off
ALL THE WAY.f man.
my eyes can pop out any moment.
i mean, try studying from 1050 all the way till 4 oclock non stop.
and i still have homework undone -.-.
never mind. shall procrastinate):):):
still have fnn, social studies, a maths and physics.
i seriously hate this period of time.
i can't wait for os to finish!
alright, off to bathe. bye!
p.s if i can't be the one you love, at least tell me that
i can be the one whom you wish to see.
Saturday, July 11, 2009
frankly speaking. i am dead beat right now.
woke up at 8 plus due to disturbances from family.
woke up officially at 9, only to realise tuition got brought forward to 10.30!
so waited for jiajing to come.
took some pictures due to good hair day + good mood + bored.
he finally came went through physics for 1h 40 mins and he went off.
pfft, he left homework.
18 questions amaths! now i am only at 6 -.-.
well, he should be happy.
as he is the very first tutor of the year who gives me homework,
and i am actually doing it!
hahaha(:
did not have time to go to church for a couple of reasons.
1) did not wish to throw temper.
2) clara did not go.
3) homework
so Lord, forgive me!
went down for a walk just now.
i was really hoping i could bump into ____.
or at least see his friends. ):
what to do, everything is in God's hand.
i have no say in it.
If God wants it this way, i just have to let you go.
it seems challenging. But, i have to listen.
p.s had been doing homework since 10.30! OMGOSH AND NOW IS 8:23.
just had break here and there. my eyes are tired. my mind is popping.
and i still have 12 more Qs to go. ): !
another ps. i sumbitted my DPA form already!
Lord, please bless me. i really dread to be a vet!
woke up at 8 plus due to disturbances from family.
woke up officially at 9, only to realise tuition got brought forward to 10.30!
so waited for jiajing to come.
took some pictures due to good hair day + good mood + bored.
he finally came went through physics for 1h 40 mins and he went off.
pfft, he left homework.
18 questions amaths! now i am only at 6 -.-.
well, he should be happy.
as he is the very first tutor of the year who gives me homework,
and i am actually doing it!
hahaha(:
did not have time to go to church for a couple of reasons.
1) did not wish to throw temper.
2) clara did not go.
3) homework
so Lord, forgive me!
went down for a walk just now.
i was really hoping i could bump into ____.
or at least see his friends. ):
what to do, everything is in God's hand.
i have no say in it.
If God wants it this way, i just have to let you go.
it seems challenging. But, i have to listen.
p.s had been doing homework since 10.30! OMGOSH AND NOW IS 8:23.
just had break here and there. my eyes are tired. my mind is popping.
and i still have 12 more Qs to go. ): !
another ps. i sumbitted my DPA form already!
Lord, please bless me. i really dread to be a vet!
Friday, July 10, 2009
i am super f-ing irritated.
indeed secondary 4 is a stress year.
but my church is not even making my life easier.
i still have to do homework.
if not got to see 4 bird faces -.-
irritating.
got tons of homework.
a maths, physics, chem, test.
blahblahblah.
tutor just gave me a maths and expected me to complete it
and he is going through it on sunday.
*screams.
i just got back to my senses of letting you go.
and now, i got hit by stress.
seriously, this is the first time i ever felt stress.
and i hate it.
and those people around me is not even helping me.
they are adding on burdens.
but, my school and tuition i understand.
they got paid to stress me out.
but my church?
f you mans -.-.
please, dont act outstanding
when you 2 did not even care for 3 years.
so what? so what if i am not going to do?
you talk so much you do la! also not like the 4 of us wants to win -.-.
indeed secondary 4 is a stress year.
but my church is not even making my life easier.
i still have to do homework.
if not got to see 4 bird faces -.-
irritating.
got tons of homework.
a maths, physics, chem, test.
blahblahblah.
tutor just gave me a maths and expected me to complete it
and he is going through it on sunday.
*screams.
i just got back to my senses of letting you go.
and now, i got hit by stress.
seriously, this is the first time i ever felt stress.
and i hate it.
and those people around me is not even helping me.
they are adding on burdens.
but, my school and tuition i understand.
they got paid to stress me out.
but my church?
f you mans -.-.
please, dont act outstanding
when you 2 did not even care for 3 years.
so what? so what if i am not going to do?
you talk so much you do la! also not like the 4 of us wants to win -.-.
Thursday, July 9, 2009
today was a fantastic day.
studied studied studied at the first few parts.
had emaths set test.
pray that i pass, haha. (:
skip all the way to fnn.
it turned out to be awesome!
lols -.-. all those near me was laughing at how i cooked -.-
reason was because i stretched my hand to the pan,
jumping, screaming and using tools to cover my face.
the oil was scary ok!
i screamed when waikin's oil jumped. -.-.
aww, so glad for javin!
christine, jiayi and cynthia were fighting over him.
HAHAHA.
me and joey the innocent one.
clara is right. i should let go.
if things are meant this way, i should move on.
what we want are frogs that turn into prince.
not toads that turn into trolls.
perhaps, i am hanging on.
because i fear, that i would never receive a frog.
i dare not budge forward. i am afraid.
but i know, its time.
studied studied studied at the first few parts.
had emaths set test.
pray that i pass, haha. (:
skip all the way to fnn.
it turned out to be awesome!
lols -.-. all those near me was laughing at how i cooked -.-
reason was because i stretched my hand to the pan,
jumping, screaming and using tools to cover my face.
the oil was scary ok!
i screamed when waikin's oil jumped. -.-.
aww, so glad for javin!
christine, jiayi and cynthia were fighting over him.
HAHAHA.
me and joey the innocent one.
to ____________:
i am glad things turned out this way.
we are still friends, though not that close.
but still, i thanked God you came into my life.
not just because of what has happened today.
its because of every little action you did everyday.
to show me, you will still be there as a friend, for me.
clara is right. i should let go.
if things are meant this way, i should move on.
what we want are frogs that turn into prince.
not toads that turn into trolls.
perhaps, i am hanging on.
because i fear, that i would never receive a frog.
i dare not budge forward. i am afraid.
but i know, its time.
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
today mood was weird
at a moment, i was so down, i could die.
another moment,
i was so hyper i could not stop talking.
weird.
saw you today.
i tried not to, but i cant help.
i miss your back view.
i miss your face.
i miss your voice.
but i never even talked a single sentence with you at all.
joey was right.
you were an ass.
you didnt have to tell _________ about me.
if you want to leave me hanging,
its bad enough.
try to humiliate me?
that is a bad move.
guys should know,
never mess with girls when they are in a seriously bad mood.
and today, i am in a mood that makes me want to kill you.
if i am able to walk away that day,
i want to prove to everyone, i can do it one more time.
and this will be the last.
i promise, it will.
just give me a little more time.
at a moment, i was so down, i could die.
another moment,
i was so hyper i could not stop talking.
weird.
saw you today.
i tried not to, but i cant help.
i miss your back view.
i miss your face.
i miss your voice.
but i never even talked a single sentence with you at all.
joey was right.
you were an ass.
you didnt have to tell _________ about me.
if you want to leave me hanging,
its bad enough.
try to humiliate me?
that is a bad move.
guys should know,
never mess with girls when they are in a seriously bad mood.
and today, i am in a mood that makes me want to kill you.
if i am able to walk away that day,
i want to prove to everyone, i can do it one more time.
and this will be the last.
i promise, it will.
just give me a little more time.
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
i feel like a fool.
i never knew
all these while, my emotions were so unstable because of you.
when i ensured myself that you were long gone,
i found out, that you were not.
all these while, i was just putting a strong front.
a mask to hide from reality.
perhaps this love for you is just out of guilt.
out of regrets.
its been so long ever since we came face to face.
you had to ignore me.
you just had to leave me hanging.
when i chatted with darling clara last night,
i realized this love for you
is like what she said
i just wanted to fill a gap.
i never knew
all these while, my emotions were so unstable because of you.
when i ensured myself that you were long gone,
i found out, that you were not.
all these while, i was just putting a strong front.
a mask to hide from reality.
perhaps this love for you is just out of guilt.
out of regrets.
its been so long ever since we came face to face.
you had to ignore me.
you just had to leave me hanging.
when i chatted with darling clara last night,
i realized this love for you
is like what she said
i just wanted to fill a gap.
Monday, July 6, 2009
this is really stupid.
My heart ache when you leave.
But when i see you, i feel nothing.
I admit, i dread for the weekends.
cos I am starting to feel all empty again.
After all the i love that cute guy in church,
it faded.
now, i am not even sure where my emotions stand.
they come and go.
But it always leave me at this irritating and annoying state.
of emptiness, loneliness, pains and worries.
So what if i am addicted to your perfume or whatever.
I am not even sure whether you are treating me better.
I am lost, i truly am.
I caught myself into such a state,
i screwed my life, i am sure.
I made myself lose a very important friend.
Yet, i dare not tell him why.
My love life is such a ****.
they dont stay. they dont go.
they are just cement, trying to fill this hole.
I am not even sure it exist or not.
I want to tell someone who really can understand.
I know my friends are here.
But how can they understand?
My situation is something strange, i myself do not know how to explain.
I am really tired of putting on a strong front.
where inside, i am breaking apart.
Yet, i dare not speak out the pain.
How?
My heart ache when you leave.
But when i see you, i feel nothing.
I admit, i dread for the weekends.
cos I am starting to feel all empty again.
After all the i love that cute guy in church,
it faded.
now, i am not even sure where my emotions stand.
they come and go.
But it always leave me at this irritating and annoying state.
of emptiness, loneliness, pains and worries.
So what if i am addicted to your perfume or whatever.
I am not even sure whether you are treating me better.
I am lost, i truly am.
I caught myself into such a state,
i screwed my life, i am sure.
I made myself lose a very important friend.
Yet, i dare not tell him why.
My love life is such a ****.
they dont stay. they dont go.
they are just cement, trying to fill this hole.
I am not even sure it exist or not.
I want to tell someone who really can understand.
I know my friends are here.
But how can they understand?
My situation is something strange, i myself do not know how to explain.
I am really tired of putting on a strong front.
where inside, i am breaking apart.
Yet, i dare not speak out the pain.
How?
went to kelly house today.
lols, almost all three of us overslept!
hahaha.
took a train down to simei.
along the way,
seriously, i saw a really hot guy
he is an Eurasian,
wearing sunglasses, polo tee.
awesome sight! haha! :D
so ya ok, back to topic -.-
Kelly and i waited for Cynthia and took bus 5 to Kelly house.
went to play billiard first, since it was raining.
lol! kelly was good!
and we realise, cynthia body is the shortest.
HAHHA.
every round, she had problems hitting the ball.
but i am worse though.
i keep 'scoring' the white ball -.-. lol, irritating! :D
played for an hour and we got 'chased out' due to time limit -.-.
crap. lol
went up to change,
this is the enjoyable part.
Kelly and i forced Cynthia to swim.
how? i chased her around kelly bedroom.
kelly kept begging cynthia to wear.
at first, she didnt. so i, being the good one,
i forced her.
i tried pulling her pants and shirt.
and she started running.
so i started chasing. in the end, i still win :D
hurray! haha, lols.
went down to pool, swam for a couple of laps.
played with kelly and cynthia at the pool playground.
ok. cynthia claimed that i raped her,
cos i dived underwater and pulled her leg, many times :D
went up to kelly house again to bathe.
lol, bathing with cynthia was funny.
she was blinded by the water.
went to buy cup noodles with kelly and cynthia.
ate till about 4.30 and my dad came to fetch me.
ate a waffle and now blogging!
alright, off to do physics -.-.
bye!
lols, almost all three of us overslept!
hahaha.
took a train down to simei.
along the way,
seriously, i saw a really hot guy
he is an Eurasian,
wearing sunglasses, polo tee.
awesome sight! haha! :D
so ya ok, back to topic -.-
Kelly and i waited for Cynthia and took bus 5 to Kelly house.
went to play billiard first, since it was raining.
lol! kelly was good!
and we realise, cynthia body is the shortest.
HAHHA.
every round, she had problems hitting the ball.
but i am worse though.
i keep 'scoring' the white ball -.-. lol, irritating! :D
played for an hour and we got 'chased out' due to time limit -.-.
crap. lol
went up to change,
this is the enjoyable part.
Kelly and i forced Cynthia to swim.
how? i chased her around kelly bedroom.
kelly kept begging cynthia to wear.
at first, she didnt. so i, being the good one,
i forced her.
i tried pulling her pants and shirt.
and she started running.
so i started chasing. in the end, i still win :D
hurray! haha, lols.
went down to pool, swam for a couple of laps.
played with kelly and cynthia at the pool playground.
ok. cynthia claimed that i raped her,
cos i dived underwater and pulled her leg, many times :D
went up to kelly house again to bathe.
lol, bathing with cynthia was funny.
she was blinded by the water.
went to buy cup noodles with kelly and cynthia.
ate till about 4.30 and my dad came to fetch me.
ate a waffle and now blogging!
alright, off to do physics -.-.
bye!
Saturday, July 4, 2009
i just hate to bottle things up.
so i guess that is why i have a blog.
tuition today was awesome.
i finally got a hang of the left hand rule!
proud of myself yo :D
went to mac to meet clara.
oh my gosh.
there was a hunk.
hot, cute.
one word : awesome.
tan, muscular.
what else?
hot. :D
went to church.
seriously, everything was great until cell -.-
it sucks literally.
everything went WRONG.
she and she
was like keep saying
' this is like, who is doing it huh'
then clara say why you all keep taking other cell notes
than they say
'cos SOMEONE never do la. who huh'
then give that f face -.-
please la
say us what, no time then you all have.
come from raffles girls or anglican high
so what.
we come from spf and st hildas leh.
dont give that f face when you all do please.
never concentrate, never get scolding or nagging.
me and clara talk about the sermon you all ask us to shut up.
shut your f mouth la you, b.
think i can tolerate you ah.
f man you.
like which church will force you do bible study
which cell force you to sit with who or pair with who.
which cell leaders keep nagging at you cos you never do cell work -.-.
which friend will keep saying like their school give more work yet they can spend more time with god?
say what ' oh, my school very far. end at 6, i still come to church at 7'
f la -.-.
never learn your sermon dont gei kiang go pretend write.
they say is not the quantity but quality.
who knows what you all did for quiet time -.-.
did you even pray every day.
B, F you.
seriously pissed off by such people can.
but NO, i wont last min change tuition, plans or anything
for you FB sake ok.
so i guess that is why i have a blog.
tuition today was awesome.
i finally got a hang of the left hand rule!
proud of myself yo :D
went to mac to meet clara.
oh my gosh.
there was a hunk.
hot, cute.
one word : awesome.
tan, muscular.
what else?
hot. :D
went to church.
seriously, everything was great until cell -.-
it sucks literally.
everything went WRONG.
she and she
was like keep saying
' this is like, who is doing it huh'
then clara say why you all keep taking other cell notes
than they say
'cos SOMEONE never do la. who huh'
then give that f face -.-
please la
say us what, no time then you all have.
come from raffles girls or anglican high
so what.
we come from spf and st hildas leh.
dont give that f face when you all do please.
never concentrate, never get scolding or nagging.
me and clara talk about the sermon you all ask us to shut up.
shut your f mouth la you, b.
think i can tolerate you ah.
f man you.
like which church will force you do bible study
which cell force you to sit with who or pair with who.
which cell leaders keep nagging at you cos you never do cell work -.-.
which friend will keep saying like their school give more work yet they can spend more time with god?
say what ' oh, my school very far. end at 6, i still come to church at 7'
f la -.-.
never learn your sermon dont gei kiang go pretend write.
they say is not the quantity but quality.
who knows what you all did for quiet time -.-.
did you even pray every day.
B, F you.
seriously pissed off by such people can.
but NO, i wont last min change tuition, plans or anything
for you FB sake ok.
Friday, July 3, 2009
nothing much today.
fadhilah bought some oreo cheese cake for me!
oh my gosh, seriously.
her cheesecakes were the ones that made me
got hooked and addicted to cheesecakes.
thanks dear(:
after school,
went to eat.
lols, so unlucky la. -.-
met that glenn.
joey, dont so innocent please.
his face everytime turn black when he saw us.
he practically glared at us like we were stalking him.
PLEASE.
we were there first.
irritating. -.-
oral was a complete flunk!
God, please let me get a B3.
though everyone laughs at what i said
even the teacher -.-.
i know i did my best.
do you think so?
seeing you alone. i was shock
i never realize you only had us in 4G.
but i just cant hang out with you as usual.
i am like that.
i dont wish to argue with you every time i have a fit.
its really annoying, and i know you think so too.
friends are there to compromise to each other.
but i cant.
i know i am mean. scold me all you want.
but i just want you to know, i am sorry.
fadhilah bought some oreo cheese cake for me!
oh my gosh, seriously.
her cheesecakes were the ones that made me
got hooked and addicted to cheesecakes.
thanks dear(:
after school,
went to eat.
lols, so unlucky la. -.-
met that glenn.
joey, dont so innocent please.
his face everytime turn black when he saw us.
he practically glared at us like we were stalking him.
PLEASE.
we were there first.
irritating. -.-
oral was a complete flunk!
God, please let me get a B3.
though everyone laughs at what i said
even the teacher -.-.
i know i did my best.
do you think so?
seeing you alone. i was shock
i never realize you only had us in 4G.
but i just cant hang out with you as usual.
i am like that.
i dont wish to argue with you every time i have a fit.
its really annoying, and i know you think so too.
friends are there to compromise to each other.
but i cant.
i know i am mean. scold me all you want.
but i just want you to know, i am sorry.
Thursday, July 2, 2009
today went ikea for lunch with the cynthia, joey and kelly(:
ate a hotdog and drank one cup of ice lemon tea as usual.
decided to skip ice cream
but bought curry puff instead.
oh my gosh.
the curry puff is delicious!
highly recommended by me. haha
tomorrow having chinese mother tongue oral.
seriously, i am afraid.
but i will leave everything into God's hand.
it is not that i am giving you a cold shoulder
and ignoring you after so long.
but i just do not wish to show you my temper
time and time, over and over again.
i do not want to get involve with your criticism.
neither am i able to stand your hypocritical attitude.
i am sorry, but i just have no guts to tell you the truth on everything
face to face.
sorry.
ate a hotdog and drank one cup of ice lemon tea as usual.
decided to skip ice cream
but bought curry puff instead.
oh my gosh.
the curry puff is delicious!
highly recommended by me. haha
tomorrow having chinese mother tongue oral.
seriously, i am afraid.
but i will leave everything into God's hand.
it is not that i am giving you a cold shoulder
and ignoring you after so long.
but i just do not wish to show you my temper
time and time, over and over again.
i do not want to get involve with your criticism.
neither am i able to stand your hypocritical attitude.
i am sorry, but i just have no guts to tell you the truth on everything
face to face.
sorry.
