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Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Through the seasons, i will still feel your embrace all day long.
Just started my work and i feel like quitting already. Lol, its really draining me out. Everyday i come home, all i can think of is sleep. It may be a good thing as i didn't even think about him. Yet, i dont have time for myself D: My neck aches, my back hurts, my shoulders are sore. I promise i promise, once i reach the dang quota of 30 frigging thick, old files. I AM QUITTING. Yea yea, im a sore loser. But im not a business person ok? Like i said, i only want to work as a vet or a counselor. You may say, but its 6.50 per hour! People are begging for this job and you got it without an interview! Let me say this, i rather give it to people who need this job more than i do. Cos i hate doing stuff without any feeling of satisfactory. Its so not me. Neither am i that in need of money. I work for the sake of hey, i have a job to kill time. So please people, stop saying that this job is frigging easy. Even my colleagues said this job is boring.
Yawns, off to sleep already. Energy level is becoming negative -.-. Will things finally become what i expect and wants?
Saturday, November 14, 2009
Time heals, but the wait kills.
Hey people, i know you miss me. Currently in some dark, creepy, disgusting lan shop with friends. Yea, i met a really sweet and cool friend call rachel. She rocks :D
Anyway..... Been away for movies and hang out recently. Starting work on monday! Dang, have to wake up so early. Everything comes with a price, dont they?):
Anyway, had the most embarrassing moment in my life. I cried like some shit in front of some strangers and friends. So fook, B, thanks a lot ah. I still miss you ok. In someway or another, you got me hypnotised and unable to hate you.
So anyway, before meeting my friends, i went out with the lovely beloved white one, tay sin yee. Ok la, we are dang crap -.-. go all the way to city hall just to eat macdonalds. LOL. Though this outing was really short, we took crappy pictures and talked crap. For example SY: Amanda, you very waste food leh! We go buy container stuff all the food inside then give it to our friends. A: LOL. I am saving the earth from obesity, coronary heart diseases and blahblahblah.
Anyway, going out again tomorrow to shop with mom! The price of today's new sandals was 2 stupid blisters and 2 stupid cuts. Dang, on the way home, i wondered, why is it that i always have to suffer man... im kind of tired with all this shit treatments from guys. Morons -.-. Ftttttt. Somehow, i know i am still waiting.
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
I think you are just fine without me. But, i'm not.
Man, Cambridge sure knows how to torture us. Putting MCQ for the last? Dude, thats pure sadness! Pfft, whatever. Anyway, manicures tomorrow! Woah, clara sure is killing me by smsing me everyday reminding me on the manicures. That girl sure is looking forward for poly life.
Anyway, woke up at 10.16am. Dang it sure is early. Gah, i cant wait to just move the earth myself so it can rotate faster. The time is killing me! And my piece of metal next to me is not even vibrating. Hello, feeling lonely here. Lols. Gee, i just cant wait to get a fluffy furball next to me So i can watch tv, bathe, eat, sleep with it. And if i am so bored, i can just stare at it. We can even be bff for life. HAHAHA. Yeayea, i want my cat -.-. I even gave it a name! It will be called pillow. (or maybe i will let it choose. in case it doesnt like that name)
I want a white persian cat. Mom said, Make sure its as fat as garfield so it cant disturb me. Dad said, it would be a nightmare if we wake up to find a furball in the middle of me and mommy. Sister said, God, why bless me with a sister who loves cat and not dogs. Clara said, Why bring back a cat when you can have a dog. Jia jing said, Cat is a waste of money. But.. I say, Cats are the peaceful angels of the earth that DONT DROOL disgustingly.
I know you and i have demoted from friends to strangers. I just feel that you have completely wiped me out from you. Though sooner or later i have to move on, i love you as for now. And worse, i have no idea why i am so attracted to you. Fook. -.-
Sunday, November 8, 2009
In life, everyone has a companion. I just haven't found mine.
My my, in a blink and olevels are coming to an end? Yet, its still going on. Irritating. Anyway, about this onsugar thing, yeps. Tani and i have made a pact, we will be moving to onsugar soon! Though she had already moved, i still have some stuffs to do first. Haha.
Secondly, mom agreed for my manicures! Oh my gosh, excited! Will be showing them off to the world on 11 nov. Well, if everything goes smoothly. Haha. Exciting isn't it? Why have i decided to do manicures? Thanks to clara consistent persuasion and well, force. Totally cannot wait. Haha.
Thirdly, my uncle found me a job! Woah, me amanda working. Life sure does have its most unexpected stuff isnt it? Well friends, relax. You wont see me around. Cos i will be in the office. Haha. Hopefully there will be people slightly around my age to entertain me. Get what i mean? Around my age? Entertain me? :D In case you are just dumb enough not to know, facing four walls and adults are boring ok. Will be starting work on 16 nov. Gah, thats why i am going out to do manicures and shopping. Must get good impression you know? Hope they dont ask me do horrendous stuff like making coffee and buying doughnuts -.-. Well, movies always have these, dont they. And just in case you are thinking why on earth would i get a job, good question! Well, since everyone is getting one, might as well just budge around and make new friends. Get money and working experience. And yes one more thing, its because i want to occupy myself to forget you and well, most importantly, my mom is chasing me out of the house to work.
Last but not least, I am still hating the fact that olevel isnt offically over and i already made crazy plans. Haha.
Alright, off to study.): For the last time will i fall for a twerp like you.
Thursday, November 5, 2009
You were the first, and will be the last.
Today, jia jing told me how nice Jennifer's Body was. He said it wasn't a good movie for kids due to kissing scences. Pfft, GUYS. hahahahha! Gee, as the very innocent girl whose mind has wonderful imaginations, yea i was thinking *clean. Haha, ya right -.-.
Next, went to granddad's house due to noisy renovations. Gah, came up and haven't even started on anything yet.
I thought i was fine during the exams, however, thanks to this long break, the feelings are creeping back. And i know, it isn't going to budge a bit. Oh lord, please, let me suffer just after my olevels. I really don't want anything to come between my studies and my promise to you.
I really can't move on. I can't find the strength. Friends told me what i knew Or what i didn't really felt like hearing. They said you had a very bad temper and would put your pride first. I knew it, but i didn't want to hear it. Yes, call me stubborn, but i guess love is all about this. The this refers to, me puttng aside everything, and accepting your every flaw. To tell you the truth, i always hated guys who were like this. However, no idea why, when it came to you, i found it hard to hate you. I thought i had moved on really. I was really myself during the exams. Happy and didn't even once thought about you. However, i knew it. It wouldn't last long. I just wish, there is someone who is able to replace you. But B, to tell you the truth, you were the most perfect being i had ever came across. Because, i love you.
Only time will tell when i will be healed. But as for now, the wounds will be the lessons of love.
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
A truth can never be a lie.
Finally back from exams! All down, left 2 more. Fnn and mcq. Dang, why do they have to put mcq on the last day of exams -.-. And its a freaking long wait.
Sigh, i am still being banned from television. When everyone is already relaxing -.-. Whats wrong with life? Pfft.
Been stressing and freaking myself out over the past few days. Over many things):
There are somethings in life, no matter how hard you deny, it just remains as a fact. And B, i had been bitch-blogging about you. I had been thinking of you. I still have one more thing to say. I found out, no matter how hard i tried to get rid of you. It would work, but only a while. I dreamed of you last night, i woke up with swollen eyes. The truth is, even though on the surface i denied i still love you, and when i go round telling and confessing i no longer love you and i hate you. The feeling is still there. I still miss you, and love you. And because of you, i find it hard to find another guy to replace you. Because to me, no matter what you did. Those 3 weeks were the most perfect days when you were with me.
Sunday, November 1, 2009
I will miss the times we had together.
Dang, why am i here now am i need to study that frigging chem -.-? Well, cos i am partially rejoicing that God blessed me with beautiful topics in ss! :D Huimei and i was practically freaking out when we got our question paper. When she told me SBQ Kuwait! I stunned, laughed, panic, and felt relieved. Haha. Cos i was really praying that the sbq would be topics i studied. managed to finish the torutring paper 2 mins before 9.30! O: Totally scribbling. Hope those markers have good eyesights man -.-.
Just a short post here. As the year comes to an end, we often ponder on our memories. We would miss the good times together and learn from our mistakes from the bad times. To those who had been with me through my times of need and troubles I thank you for being here. To those who had been crapping and laughing with me though my times of hyper-ness I thank you for appreciating me and being fun with me. To those who left me without words and still hate me Frig you, crap you, shit you, whatever you. Cos im still happy without you. To those who are still here for me Let us stay like this forever. Because, i thank you and love you (as a friend) .
And to this very special person, my tutor, jia jing. Thank you for cheering me up when i was down due to studies. Thank you for crapping with me during lesson when i often yawn , in fact all the time. Thank you for patiently teaching me and still surviving. Lastly, thank you for being the best tutor ever.
My friends, let us all stay together like this. Fun and close, forever.
