You Me and We.

now i understand why i felt so empty.
thanks to you, once again.
i was sure i forgotten you.
yet, my heart proved me wrong.
days after days,
this emptiness became a crack, a gap, a hole.
now, its as big as Bigfoot footprint.
when i saw you in the bus today,
i broke down on the way home.
i hate myself.
i really do,
i have to control my emotions daily
because i wanted to prove myself wrong.
i pushed back my tears daily.
only to feel it flooding my eyes in pain.
why do things have to end this way?
why do boys always leave girls hanging
and to fend for themselves?
this isnt a game of survival ass.
this is love, when you promise,
you have to keep.

if i have the capability,
i would go up to you now,
and slap you.
and finally say.
i hate you for leaving me hanging.
so now i will say,
goodbye, you freak.
and this will be the very last time.

today had back all papers except fnn.
wow, i passed a maths paper 1!
i win JOEY TAN!
wow, i couldnt believe it.
i was seriously shaking -.-
was really hyper today.
had no idea why.
well, as usual.
i felt really empty inside during lessons.
i failed combined humans. ( oh my gosh, seriously )
e maths( erm, i really thought i would get at least a 50? )
a maths( bah. its part of me alr. but i improved alright?!)
fnn, please dont fail.
because i already failed 3.
and thats enough -.-