<body>
Paradox
Everything, including love, comes with a price.

Thursday, August 6, 2009

I want to know, and want to understand how a make believe world feels like. Where friends would never leave you, people would understand you. Everyone would treat it like you exist, and that they would not take advantage of you. Someone, teach me to create a wall and mask. I want this mask to hide and blend my emotions well, so that people would no longer guess how i feel. I want the wall to protect me from hurts and all.

What exactly is friendship? Everyone says friends would stay and stand by you, to shelter you from everything. Why am i not having these group of people then. Why is everyone leaving me one by one. Does it satisfy them that i fall?

You promised me to stay by my side no matter what. You said all the others who hurt me in the past were jerks. Now, you are creating a history for yourself, of being a jerk in my life. Because, you are going to leave me hanging, just when i needed someone. You are going to leave without a word, like everyone else. Also, if you dont have the capability to be here when i need someone, dont bother to act like you are concern. Cause, telling you how much i truly need you around isnt going to make any difference. So please, dont shed any crocodile tears over me. There are better girls out there. Im may be after all, a nobody to you. Just a girl whom you waste your messages on.

Anyway, lets get down to business.
I wonder have i lost weight.
Cause i have been getting gastric, yet skipping my meals regularly(:
Its like, i have not been eating at all for the past few days. HAHAHA.
No, i am not having anorexia, though it may be fun to slim down a lot.
I dont want to be skin and bones -.-
tomorrow having national day celebration.
Yet, i was let down, as usual. Plans had been cancelled.
Dont feel like going somewhere with them.
So staying at home to slack. (study?? hmm, thinking. haha)


Labels:



Photobucket
Daughter of God.
♥ Loud and Hyper

The May Baby.
Born to bring Love, Joy and Chaos.




March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009

layout by Jacquelyn
Icon by Photobucket