or is it history that is going to repeat itself once again.
Oh lord, i am seriously sick and tired of my situation.
I know i tend to be too sensitive at times.
But i am really afraid of losing them.
nothing much lately.
really tired and lazy too.
trying my best to live life without him.
will i succeed?
i think so.
i just found a really interesting way to cure my depression.
while stoning in front of the computer listening to songs,
in addition to a kinderjoy really works for me(:
c,j,k
i dont know what is going on.
but i feel drifted away from you 3.
it seems as though,
i have nothing in common with you 3 anymore.
is it me being sensitive,
or is it something really going on.
God, i pray, i really want to have a stronger emotion.
i am tired of always being the one with a weak, fragile heart
now, come to think of it, i am in this situation because i tend to take things for granted. i believe that everything is God's blessing, and this enjoyable feeling will last forever. yet, i am terribly wrong. when everything come crashing down, it is like as though, i have been shot and died on the spot. is it human nature that when something is with us, we will tend to believe that it will last forever, and when it is gone, we would start to think of the enjoyable memories. i have seriously learn from here, never ever ever take things for granted. also, when everyone is able to move on and take it easily, amanda, you too must move on. hanging on isnt going to make you feel better. neither would anyone sympathies you. Because in this world, if you are nice and kind and take things for granted with a small glass heart, you will be the first one who will be dead. is it really true, that friends are here for you to take advantage of? if no, why am i always taken advantage of? ):
