You Me and We.

lols, have really fallen ill after battling with my body for so long.
kind of sorry for clara cos we will not be taking group photo today
suppose to have radical, but mom wants me to stay at home to study. sorrysorrysoryy): !

i really am disappointed and unable to face the truth alone.
we have really drifted, even a fool could tell.
what is going on?
we used to be so noisy together, the four of us.
yet now, we have hardly anything in common left.
even though its only a few more months left,
i really miss the past months we spent together.

and to you, shucks you alright.
she said you were obviously purposely making me upset.
it is obvious you played me out.
it is obvious you have really forgotten everything we did together.
hate is a really strong word.
so i guess, i seriously and really despise you.
and guess what, i am moving on without you,
because the memories you implanted on me its like words on a piece of paper.
It can be erased. Yet, the scars would remain.
However, the paper could still be reused.
and once recycled, the scars would be gone.

This is so annoying.
Slept like a pig from 2.30 till 4.50.
Was really tired.
My throat and nose hurts more than my heart now, so i guess its a good thing.
Gosh, i really want to have some selective memory loss then to be in this situation
i should not have been in. Because, i am tired.
Physically, Emotionally and Mentally.
Is there really away to forget you completely.
The more i see the blog, the more i want to hate myself for loving you.
and i want to hate you for leaving me all alone.
I want to cry so badly in someone's arms.
Who can be my comforting shoulder?
i intended it to be clara and today. Yet, i am sick.
So i am left facing with the pain once again all alone.