You Me and We.

trying to talk with tears on your face really itch and hurts.
was totally in a terrible mood today.
dad was ruining it the entire day -.-.
no idea what is wrong with him today.
literally pissed off with him.
yet, sigh. everyone have mood swings dont they?

while having lunch today,
i walked past one shop with glass doors around it.
i paused to stare at my reflection and stuff.
suddenly, i thought of you.
i was so pissed off,
i nearly smashed the window.
in the end, i just clenched my fist,
held back the tears, and moved on.
and i concluded that he is only in my thoughts
you are everywhere.
i really miss you.
i don't mind losing this battle.
but i really want you by my side.
boy, i really want to tell you, i cant get you out of my mind.
after days and weeks of denying and lying,
i am finally admitting, i still miss you.
though i am not sure if i truly liked you,
i do miss you.
though i understand why you like her till the extend of holding on,
because she is just better than me in every area.

i never loved a guy so much before. So, why must you be the first?