You Me and We.

I just found out today,
i really have no more energy left to deny.
All i know now is, there is so many things around me.
However, there are some things that were made clearly to me.
1. I found out i still love you.
2. You are no longer around.
3. Perhaps, i was never in your heart.
4. I don't want my studies to be affected by you and it seems easy yet hard.
5. I am tired of crying to sleep. But every night, the tears will automatically flow out.
6. I loved you too much, i am starting to hate you.
7. Even though around me is cold air, i somehow feel you warm embrace.
8. I am freaking tired of everything, be it studies or you.
Hence, this time, this is going to be a really long battle.
Though you are gone, you often creep back into me.
I am tired of feeling cold inside.
I am tired of feeling unhappy when being alone.
I really don't know why on earth am i so affected by you leaving twice.
My friends said i should have long ago moved on.
They said you weren't worth a pinch in me.
They told me you only loved her and never me.
They noted that you left without words twice to prove it all.

I admit i am trying to make myself believe that you will still come back.
I don't care if i looked like a vulnerable fool.
I knew when you and her were friends, i shouldn't have gone too close to you.
But somehow, i have no slight idea why i got so attracted to you.

Perhaps i still miss you because i am bored.
Maybe i still love you because i am stressed.
If not, it is because you are still in me.

Anyway, here is something cheerful.
I am counting down to 11 nov. Dang it, 21 days to holidays!
Sadly, 3 more days to olevels -.-.

Is it true that when you truly love a person for the first time, you will surely get hurt?